The Analyst by - Hal Chapter 5 Dr. Stevens listened intently as Jan described her first visit to the club. "Did you join?", she asked. "Yes, I really liked most of the people I met there, and somehow, I felt like I belonged." Dr. Stevens moved to sit beside Jan on the couch and took her hand. "Jan, I've been starting to feel that you may be moving too fast into this second life and not exercising enough caution. When you mentioned the cameras and video tape, I got a chill down my spine because I've heard of people being blackmailed with something like that. And, you really don't know that much about Dan. How can you be so sure you won't get hurt?" Jan placed her other hand on top of the doctor's and looked into her eyes. "Have you ever had the feeling that there is a part of you that has always been there, but never come to the surface?" Dr. Stevens nodded and Jan continued, "Well, I've had that feeling for a long time and when I got involved with Dan, I began to realize what that hidden part was. I am a very sexual creature. I'm finding that I love everything about my body and the bodies of other people and I've never been as happy or free as when I'm having sex. My parents were very strict and I went to a catholic school, so when I went to college, and later in the business world, I accepted that sex was for procreation and should only be pleasurable with a husband. Unfortunately, most of my experiences with men tended to reinforce that belief and I always felt guilty when sex felt good. Besides, the men I made love with seemed more interested in relieving an itch than making me feel good. I think if I had had a more "normal" sex life when I was younger, I might not have this tremendous need that has built up inside me for a long time with no relief, but it's there and I have to find a way to deal with it." "The club made me afraid in the same way that Dan does, sometimes, but I found that I liked the fear. It's partly a fear of being hurt or discovered, but mostly, it's a fear of the unknown. I really believe Dan has everything under control and won't let me get hurt. I don't know why I feel that way, but I do and getting the video tape seemed to make me believe it even more. When I first suspected that they were taping me with Kevin, I made up my mind that I will NOT be coerced or blackmailed. They can show it on 'Sixty Minutes', if they want, and I'll find a way to deal with it in my real world. I really do believe it is the only copy, and I'm toying with the idea of giving a copy to Dan and, maybe, Denise with the understanding that it will be for their enjoyment only." Dr. Stevens looked concerned and suggested that Jan not do that until she had thought it through completely and they had discussed it together. Jan agreed, and went on, "You know, I've watched that tape at least a dozen times since I got back from that trip and I'm just beginning to be able to relate to that incredibly sexy woman on the screen being me. The first few times, it was like watching someone else in a porno movie even though I could clearly remember it happening." Dr. Stevens was quiet for a few moments, then said, "Would you be willing to let me see the tape?" She wasn't certain that her curiosity was entirely professional in nature, but she found herself wanting desperately to see what Jan had described and, perhaps it would help her to provide better guidance to her patient. Jan nodded and said, "I have it in my purse. Would it be O.K. if I watch it with you?" The doctor took the cassette and inserted it in the VCR that was built in to the bookshelves that made up one entire wall of her office. She pressed the play button and took a seat in a large, soft chair where she could see both the TV screen and Jan, sitting on the couch. She wanted to take note of Jan's reactions to what she was watching. The tape began with Jan being helped to the stage by Kathy. ("My God,", she thought, "she really is small. She almost looks like a miniature woman beside Jan." As the video progressed, it became obvious that the club had at least four different cameras to cover the low platform from several different angles. From Jan's description of the club and what she could see on the screen, they were most likely remotely controlled for pan, tilt and zoom and whoever was doing the controlling appeared to be an expert at covering live action. All in all, the tape was very professionally done. As Kevin was placing the head of his huge cock against Jan's lips, Dr. Stevens shifted her eyes to watch her patient. Jan's eyes were glued to the screen and her hand was resting lightly in her lap. Her legs were pressed tightly together and squeezing very slightly. It was clear that Jan was aroused by what she was watching and the doctor encouraged her to describe her feelings as the tape progressed. Jan talked very openly about how Kevin had felt and tasted in her mouth and later, the sensations she felt as his giant member was entering her body. Despite all her efforts at maintaining a professional aloofness, Dr. Stevens felt the sexual stirings within her vagina and knew that her own fluids were starting to flow as she listened to her patient and alternately watched her patient and the highly charged action on the screen. As Jan talked and watched, she stole quick glances at the doctor and began to sense that she was also becoming very aroused. She started making her descriptions and comments more vivid and new that she was intentionally trying to turn Dr. Stevens on. She wanted her therapist to understand exactly how she felt as she performed sexually before all those strangers and she slid her hand under the waistband of her skirt and into the bikini panties she wore underneath. She knew that the doctor could see what she was doing, even in the low light of the office, but didn't care. Yes, she did care. She wanted to be watched as she masturbated. Dr. Stevens knew that she should stop the tape and get both Jan and herself back under control. Her patient was masturbating feverishly in her office and, worse still, the doctor wanted desperately to do the same thing. Dr. Stevens had only been in practice for five years and had never had a situation like this arise before. She had, of course, been warned many times during her training that it was her responsibility to maintain control of the session at all times, but what could it really hurt if Jan brought herself to orgasm while watching herself on the screen? "If only I weren't so damned turned on myself.." she thought. When the video Kevin pulled out and moved up to position himself over the waiting mouth of the video Jan, the live Jan cried out, "Oh, Yes! He's going to come in my mouth!", and her real mouth opened wide in imitation of the one she was watching, as her fingers dug deeply between her sopping lips and her thumb pressed hard against her clit. Jan's orgasm began for real just as Kevin's did on the tape. The semen falling like big, white raindrops onto Jan's beautiful face and parted lips was more than the doctor could take. She turned to see Jan's mouth wide open as if wanting to feel and taste it yet again and Jan's hand was working feverishly under her skirt as she reached her climax. Dr. Stevens needed an orgasm as badly as she ever had in her life, but she also needed to keep that fact hidden from her patient. Somehow, she managed to keep her composure and suggested that Jan might want to go to the ladie's room in the outer office and "freshen up". When Jan had left the room, the doctor went to the small private bathroom beside her office and locked the door. She quickly lowered her panty hose and panties and sat on the chair at the make up table. She raised her skirt to her waist and drove two fingers into herself. She was coming almost immediately and her fluids were running down the crack of her bottom to pool on the velvet below her. She fingered her clit harder than she could ever remember and found herself enjoying the slight pain she was causing from such rough handling of her most sensitive spot. When Dr. Stevens came back into the room, Jan was standing quietly, looking out the window. The doctor walked up behind her and put her arms around Jan's small waist. She leaned forward and placed a light kiss on the back of Jan's neck, pushing the soft, shiny hair aside with her face. "Jan,", she said quietly, "I'm going to refer you to Dr. Kelly. I think you'll really like him." Jan didn't move. The arms around her waist felt very good, and she had half expected Dr. Stevens to drop her case after what had just happened. The doctor continued, "I'm afraid I can't maintain my objectivity where you're concerned and I think it would be better if you see another therapist for awhile. Besides, the next time you go to Boston... I'm going with you. If you and Dan will have me." ======================================================================== NixPix Windy City (the Midwest) 708 564 1754 NixPix Central (the original Nick) 303 920 1263 NixPix Sweden 011 46 40 110590 NixPix Austria 011 43 7719 8871 NixPix Finland 011 358 0 298 3390 Remember -- fun and communication is what we're all about! ==========================================================================