- : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- girlie17's... -:- -:- -:- -:- -:- << < -:- ggg s&$""$$$""$&s .s&$P""$&s. $$$""""" .s&$P""$&s. ggggp**ggg. > >> $$$$$$ $$$ $$$$$$&s - `7$$bmmgggg $$$ - $$$$$$$mmm$$$$$$$$$ - `7P' - ggg -- $$$ $$$ $$$ $$$$ - $$$$$$ - $$$$$$$$ - $$$$$$$ - gggg $$$$ - gggg - $$$ -- $$$ $$$ $$$ $$$$ - $$$$$$ - $$$$ $$$ - $$$$$$$ - $$$$ $$$$ - $$$$ - $$$ *gg$$$ $$$ $$$ `7$$mmm$$$`7$mmm$$P' `7$bmm$P'`7$$bmm$$P' $$$$ `7$$mmm$$$ `7$$$ gggg $$$ gggg $$$ `7$b -:- `7$$mmm$P' -:- mystery poetry e'zine #1 -:- `7$$mmm$P' << < `' -:- > >> - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - "for such chaotic misch-masch potpourri, what are we to expect but poetry?" -:- t.s. eliot -:- predictability's a bitch - by girlie17 =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= here it is boys and girls, the introductory issue of mystery! an e-zine dedicated to the expression and exploitation of all those wonderful poems we write -:- because face it -:- our world's pretty fucked up. so let's talk about it! from that annoying boyfriend or girlfriend to the psycho stalker, you know we've all felt it. and we'd all go crazy if we didn't try to figure out exactly why we let these things get to us. here are a couple of little poems i've written because no one can tell me they know how i feel, and it's almost useless to try and explain it. "unless you can see inside my head, you can't possibly understand." -less than jake so for all you girls out there tired of holding it all inside, i'm just here to say that people will listen if you speak loud enough. you just have to get their attention :) and that's not hard to do... so before i turn the music on for my strip tease i'd just like to say that's there's fun to be had for all... but just as much pain in the end. lots of tasty poetry, so eat up! - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- table of contents =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= (1) to forget you... (2) anticipation (3) don't hurt me (4) tell me (5) and i wonder (6) the only true pain i've felt and its cause is you (7) daily debate (8) change of heart (9) it feels good (10) uncertainty (11) there is no trust (12) uncertain future (13) and then what... (14) things change - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- to forget you... =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= the world around me crumbled down my thoughts i wish i could erase i want things to be the way they were before i saw your face you were just an illusion the way i wanted you to be but now i see you're no different just pure complexity so try and let me down without too much bother i can't be hurt anymore all i'd wanted was us - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- anticipation =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= forty days and forty nights it seemed i'd waited for you the days were short but the nights grew long because i always wanted more so tell me what you want from me and then i will tell you... are stories are too different to ever follow through - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- don't hurt me =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= my love is starved my lust is crazed i can only say this in so many ways just tell me you need me and then i can wait but if not you'll puch me to my next mistake i'm trying to wait to share it with you but these feelings inside i know they aren't thru i need you to see me take the risk you've told me you want me in so many words but the distance betwee us holds us apart just one thing i have to say whatever happens don't break my heart - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- tell me =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= i sit here and wait for your message to come to know what you think to know what you feel the key to your thoughts i want it so bad i just need the truth to woman from man i try to tell you just what i feel but i won't come out so what's the fuckin' deal - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- and i wonder =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= i hear your voice over the phone and it's hard to tell just what i'm being told i need an answer can't waste anymore time i still wait for you but i don't know why i met you twice you took my soul now i have no place to go empty promises unfullfilled dreams i'm not quite as you think i seem the world seems empty without you by my side i lay in bed and i start to cry i still wait for you but i don't know why you keep up my hopes and seem to try but you just can't say it and i wonder why - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- the only true pain i've felt and its cause is you =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= for once in my life i felt it was right innocence it was different something new truth we didn't lie or try to be fake reality but then i left and went away pain three states away we sit each day lust i wait for him and turn others away why we promise to meet make future plans feelings so my hopes are there but still he's not faith so still i write and he replies love so i need him can't do without - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- daily debate =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= not long ago i was on top of the world couldn't want more so many places to go but now it's changed so quickly gone i've never felt so all alone in a corner i curl up and see what's on the shelf who says that all the easy answers are gone i've got a few right here resting in my palm no more ups and no more downs the problems repeat go round and round so i comfort myself it'll all be over soon i drown my sorrows with one last tune my hands are empty my body's numb i start to feel warm and wait for the end to come - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- change of heart =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= for all the times you'd told me you'd never love anyone more for the the things you gave to me you knew i'd never ask for i'd given in to your sweet requests and never thought you sore but i never thought it'd end like this and now i just feel like a whore - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- it feels good =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= for all the times i've thought of you i'd only hoped that you'd think of me too only wishes only dreams but that was just the way it seemed i didn't think you'd have the time to indulge my wants and hear my rhyme and then you surprised me late one night we shared our thoughts and it was right but now it's hard for me to say why exactly i feel this way but it doesn't matter i don't care i'm not wearing underwear - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- uncertainty =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= i wait for you and catch your eye but never get a simple hi i used to think that u wanted me but now i feel just too lonely... i call your name you look my way you still smile but i'm afraid to say... so let me know how u feel so i can try and start to heal but maybe we still have a chance but i'm afraid to stop and ask. - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- there is no trust =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= you seemed happy with me a new adventure to look forward to everything was new so many promises, future plans was this an act? why do you seem so changed? i'm not supposed to be here alone yoi should be with me i sacrificed for you threw away another for you so now who do i find comfort with? you leave me with nothing at a time when we should have been rich i can't get an answer from you or myself i'm still confused about the turns my life has taken no more promises no more dreams it's just easier to rely on myself no more disappointment no more surprises alone i find myself faced with the truth - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- uncertain future =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= from far away you smile at me share your dreams... and fantasies it's the closest thing i've found to love but it still remains... will you be the same when i see you again will your smile have changed by the time i see you again will you wait for me so far away what do you want from me... so far away i expect so much from you i destroy myself so i give up and turn inward have i found another happiness? or just proved myself a hypocrite so many questions i'll never get to answer maybe if i ignore them, my problems will go away just like you - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- and then what... =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= unexpected meeting we find each other cheerful greeting we turn away from another... we're pushed together renew our past talk to one another a future? we asked a sudden complication of which i'm not aware i'm afraid to ask the question i'd never even dare my irresponsible ignorance foolish pride and spite keep me from the truth who knows what's right this happened in our past our only other encounter we should have learned from our last mistake i guess neither of us has changed - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : - -:- things change =:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:=:= things have changed so quickly but i don't seem to mind i guess i wasn't ready to see what i could find or maybe i just wouldn't wait for the plans i had inside you were an excuse to put things off a reason to brush aside but now i know what i want and it's not you... so i guess i lied i thought my feelings were real maybe they were -:- i'll never know so until i tell you anything goes... . : ;;,. ;;; [[[[, ,[[[[, - : ------------------------- $$$$$$$$"$$$ ----------------------------- : - 888 Y88" 888o MMM M' "MMM "life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone." -:- madonna mystery #1 was written by girlie17 and edited by mogel. mystery e'zine (c) copyright 1997. all rights reserved. please direct all correspondance & submissions to mogel@dto.net. - : -------------------------------------------------------------------- : -