靈컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴캠 � Subliminal Takeover Of youR Mind vol. 002 � 聃컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴컴캭 ESP and related topics (sorta babble) Well, it is four thirty (exactly) in the morning and i have not been able to sleep...i have been bothered by voices...now, i don't know if it is just being over tired or because of the headache, i just don't know the source of these damn voices! The first one happened when i was talking to some guy that said he had lolla tickets for saterday...we were on cyber chat (a south NJ chat board), and we went into private chat...after a while, we were talking about where we lived and stuff, then all of a sudden, he stopped typing...that's when i heard the first voice..."heh" was the first thing it said...then "looooo"...that scared the shit out of me...it still freaks me out, just typing this, gives me the feeling it's gonna happen again...i was coming from the family room, where i had the tv on...but it was on very low volume and the voice was VERY loud! Now, i easily get freaked out by "spiritual" stuff cuz i was born and raised catholic, and in this religion there are lots of spirits and demons and shit like that...well, i always get jumpy when it comes to things that seem to be "ghostly" or un-natural, so naturally, i flipped out...i told Picard of this sound (he was on Cyber Chat at the time also) and he was joking about it that it was him or some shit...i don't know, maybe that was just a one time thing...but ever since, like within the past couple hours, i've been hearing voices behind my head, like somone is watching me from behind...i HATE that feeling, i get SO scared...everybody is scared about something, well, i am scared of that whole "spiritual" thing...everything that goes with it...i can't tell what they say, but i can tell they are voices...STRANGE feeling...it's so hard to explain, so hard to even type out, it's a scary type feeling, but you keep telling yourself that it is an impossibility...blah I have had my share of ESP related things so far in my short life...i have predicted many things by accident, things i would say at random would actually occur, maybe not immediatly, but soon...the only example i can think of at the moment has to do with geekfest 1.5 ...Now, this is a kinda lame example but it's something...ok, it started when my parents wanted to do out on Monday night, the 10th or whenever...i was gonna have to stay home and babysit my little two month old baby sister...so i complained and tried to come up with an excuse for not doing it...my friends were planning a big poker game for a long time now (lame or what?) but i didn't want to say that, so the first (very first) thing that popped into my mind was Geekfest...now this was on the saterday before, so i had NO WAY of know about the plans for geekfest on monday night...you could say it is just coincidence, but i don't think so, that sort of thing happens too often... I also seem to have an unusual amount of Deza Vu's (however you spell it)...now deza vu's are VERY common and happen to EVERYBODY, but i seem to be expeiencing several a day, maybe even an hour...it truly scares me, it bothers me alot because i often pause when i know one is about to occur, and i go over the series of events in order, as they happen...it doesn't sem healthy to have as many as i do or to go about it the way i do, but i can't help it...i for the most part, don't alert people when i am having one, it sounds stupid anyway...they last from a split second to several seconds...it is not fun cuz i often get headaches shortly after and possibly nausious (sp?!) I do not like these things and i cannot control them but i do know that they run in my family...for real, it does, on my mother's side...my grandmother has explained to me that she has extensive ESP...i don't know if she can use it or whatever, i have not asked her about it for years...i know that either my grandmother or great-grandmother had some sort of bizzarre occurence happen to them...her father was in some war or was on vacation or something very far away...he was dying or something and he started screaming in one of the walls of her bedroom...i don't remember how the story really goes but that is the basic idea...this is freaking me out...plus, my great-grandmother has come to my mom in several dreams on occasion...my mother once thought i was a re-incarnation of her grandfather...strange but probable...i have inherited most of his traits...he was a great painter and writer and i like to think that i excel in both areas (except spelling)...my great grandmother was also a great painter, she left me ALL of her supplies when she past away, i just never actually tried them out... Blah...well, i think i'm gonna sign off for now...i can't think of too much else to say about this stuff...well, i want to know something...please, all of you that read this, send me mail or some other form of response to my next question...: Are you afraid of death and what is after it, if there even is an afterlife? I want to know what you people think because i am scared shitless about what is after "here"! I hate to think that there is nothingness! If someone kills me, i would so incredibly angry! I would be so pissed, i want to do everything there is to do "here" before i die, just in case... Well, i'm outa here...hope to be typing to you soon! (shout outs this time...just not too many) Tal Meta - For letting me know that in future tfiles that i should have a point to them! Plus for haveing the GREATEST board around here! Plus for posting STORM.000 on Godnet...Thanx (no asskissing intended!) Ffejtable? - For also reminding me to have a point and to not wander in circles while typing...Plus for haveing the /<00LEST board around! (files galore, gamers dream!) And ANYBODY ELSE that has read my other files...this one had more of a point and didn't babble (too much anywayz), but i sorta had fun writing this one... �袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴� � � � (GeekFest 1.5.1 = GEEKY! ) � � All of the above text was TRUE and SINCERE � � All text written by Zodiac (aka BiONiC FLEA) � � 08/12/92 (i think) � � � 훤袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴袴暠