[--------------------------------------------------------------------------] ooooo ooooo .oooooo. oooooooooooo HOE E'ZINE RELEASE #672 `888' `888' d8P' `Y8b `888' `8 888 888 888 888 888 "Growing Up Sucks" 888ooooo888 888 888 888oooo8 888 888 888 888 888 " by Jamezz 888 888 `88b d88' 888 o 6/9/99 o888o o888o `Y8bood8P' o888ooooood8 [--------------------------------------------------------------------------] It really doesnt hit you till you turn 21. Or is it when you go into life on your own? Get your first job. Or when you bring a new life into this world. After getting into some shit with the cops and fbi and at this time i met Tonya the most beutiful girl i had ever seen. But thats another story some other time. But hell i am here today must have gotten away with it huh? Well now you know a bit bout me so hope your happy. But it aint over, On December 6th 1997 i became the father of Jesse James my son. I was so spooked he came out with a pointed head and noone told me that was about how when babys pop what they look like. He had a pointed head. But now Jesse is One and a Half years old no cone head and he is big. I coldnt have asked for more. But today i think me and Tonya ended our relationship. I know i am going to lose my girl and my son in the morning. I thought that as you get older it got easyer. When things get harder you get smarter. Well shit i was wrong no one told me that shit dont change. Its still hard as hell. It kinda drives you insaine. You do all that you can just to fuck it all up. To end it all. But you cannot give up but how the hell are yo not going to? Damned if you know tell me. Here i am 21 with a kid all alone not knowing what the fuck is going on. I fell as if i am a damn kid what am i supposed to do to take care of my kid. Ya i work but that aint enough i cant be here to watch him all day. And im single there isnt anytime in my life for anything. I AM TRAPPED.... Well what else can i say this is how my life is in a short story. I know i cant write but hell i got it out..... [--------------------------------------------------------------------------] [ (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #672 - WRITTEN BY: JAMEZZ - 6/9/99 ]